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hmm.. currently at tpy..

monday.. the 5th.. after i slept till 8+pm.. slack at home.. den later online.. den realised i miss the last train... damn.. so took a cab down to clarke quay.. went to zuma to find b.. he off work le.. and we went to ms to eat ba kut teh.. and walk around ms.. and walk home.. so online and run through wad assignment for elearning.. and b fall asleep.. haha.. den later awhile.. than go sleep le..

afternoon wake up.. b cook fried rice.. so eat le.. than wash the things.. awhile later went to sleep.. than he went to work.. so stayed at home slack.. than later meet thomas and ahsiang.. went to clarke quay to pass b the key.. after that travel to lavender to eat "wan tan mee" and thomas damn suey.. haha.. his hp tio bird bomb.. -.-" so zhun.. haha.. than later went off.. to fishermen! ordered one bucket of strobe again.. drink.. play the qing wa tiao.. -.-" and tok loh..

than around 2+ went down to cine.. play pool.. after tt.. they send me home le...

went home.. slack abit.. slp..

wed.. same as tuesday... bb cook fried rice.. den wake up at 11+pm to eat.. when i slept at 6am.. -.-" so after eatin.. and washin the utensils.. was damn sleepy.. so fall asleep.. till dunno wad time baby wake me up tellin me he go meeting.. den later went back to slp.. till 3+.. wake up.. online.. den 5+ he says he reach ps le.. den asked me go down.. so went to bath.. and walk to ps.. meet b... he was at the arcade.. later on went to foodcourt to eat.. just dunno why dun have the mood to eat... den when i wanted to eat the fish slice noodle, the queue damn long.. den went to indonesian there.. also damn long.. even longer.. so dunno why.. don wanna eat loh.. went back to seat.. den later baby went to buy the indonesian one for me.. =) den after eating.. walk home.. actually wanted to meet eunice go take pay.. but den jane say pay not there yet.. so din take lor..

den later she want meet me.. so i went down to tpy.. and she meet me there.. went home take my passport.. mummy and ah ma there.. so mummy was tellin me not to go to JB.. so wadeva.. i took and keep my passport faster.. =D and so later went to kbox loh.. till 10+..

ah siang and kenny reached le.. so we went down.. take ah siang de one seater bike.. -.-" dots.. seat till so pain.. lol..

travel down to bedok north.. she go up take passport.. and than went to joo chiat.. meet up wif thomas.. den later kopi den come.. eat noodle.. den go second link le..

went in.. pump oil.. see them race.. never go eat.! -.-"

den around 2+ went out of jb.. some went home.. so left me thomas and kopi.. went to jurongville.. but there cannot go in.. dunno why.. so went down to labroder park.. slack there awhile.. and was damn hungry.. so kopi go home.. me and thomas went to eat.. at bugis.. and he see me eat.. lol.. den later he send me back to tpy..

sms b.. when i was on my way to eat.. eat le than go home.. and he den tell me to go back to tpy cox he need to go back to seng kang to do some family stuffs.. and its 4+am... so well.. so i say tml mux before 1pm take pay.. he say ok.. meet me 12+ at attica.. den so i say ok.. call him tml...

and now its goin to 3pm.. and he still haven call me.. neither did he reply my sms when i send him before i went to slp at 8+.. askin him to call me to wake up when he wake up.. so think he is still sleeping.. called him twice just now.. and no pick up..

yeah.. so he MIA till now.. neither did he sms me yesterday night when he go sengkang.. =) nice... but hopefully he never lie.

hmm.. and so.. on sat or sun.. forget when le.. went to read jac blog.. his ex gf.. and she says

"think I allowed myself to let my mind wander a bit too much last night, and it kinda wandered a little too much towards the area where I didn't want it to go- Relationships.

I had been very selfish these days, and despite Richel wants me to perservere and try to work things out again of some sort, I've decided to say a firm 'no', and leave us in the memories of the past.

I realised even though he appreciates me now, and even bore me the hope that he might love me if I were to perservere enough. I realised I don't need all these at all. Going through all the ups and downs just to achieve love was really too much for me, especially when I'm the one going through all alone.

He brought me all the way to the moon, and then time and time again, I was left to fall back down Earth myself, and everytime, the hurt just got worse.

I know exactly which kind of guys I want now, and I have someone right in front of me who fits the bill perfectly. I just want us to be ready before we try anything stupid again. At this point of time, I knowI shouldn't compromise myself.

It's hard to describe how nice the feeling is, when you lose sleep over tests, and all you need to do, is to press the dial button. He'd always be there to pick up the call, no matter how late it was, and even listen to the nonsensical whines about school, life, work and sometimes relationships.

When granny passed away and I'm all alone, someone is there, even when they are nothing but messages. At least, someone bothered to reply my pleas for attention and care.When someone messages you to make sure you reach school for your tests.

When someone tries to be mean to you, because he doesn't want to hurt you yet again so quickly. When he'd do whatever he can, so that you'd be safe. When someone guarantees your safety with his own.When someone gives you head massages cuz you're so freakin lousy, you vomit after a long run and feeling all groggy.

When someone proves you wrong that you're heavy by carrying you across the bridge. When seeing the stupid grin makes you stupid as well. Doing stupid things together, laugh at really lousy singers together and everything else.It makes me feel cherished, like, I'm important.

So, I'm going to be selfish once more, so that I'd be happy with someone I feel would bring me my real happiness. Someone who'd bring me to the moon and stay with me, watching the stars from above.

I'm sorry, but we have to move on, Richel."

well.. after i read it.. was kind of unhappi.. the first thought which run through my mind is tt he ask her to patch or smth.. so went to asked him straight.. and he says no.. he says tt i rather go and read a blog and believe wad she writes than to believe him when he is my bf beside me..

so wad i ment was.. she does not have a reason to lie in her blog.. for wad right.. plus she dont even knoe tt richel has a gf now. and who wil go and lie around in the blog..

well.. he says he did not ask her patch.. but they did quarrel and tok over some matter in the past.. saying why this and that happen.. reason? i dont knoe.. dont seems that i did call up my ex bf and quarrel wif him..

and was not really happy.. this thing has been botherin me quite sometime... tt day when we went to play mahjong at euncie house... ya..

its not even three weeks.. issit that he haven settle down his problems.. his heart..